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月亮反映了太陽的光芒
那水中那彎彎的月牙又反映了甚麼?
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Friday, April 24, 2009
Last published: Dec 07....haha
i revisited my blog to find that it's so full of emo.. lol.. but really, what's there to write about happy stuffs when there's facebook which makes u seem like u have some "real" social life? perhaps the real me is pretty emo, and thru all these posts i can actually get to understand myself more... who knows
and the first entry in more than a year... i have to admit as much as i love my exchange trip in China, i hate it.... i love the exposure to something new, i hate to know the pple around me better...
the togetherness they speak about... the integrity they're supposed to uphold... the initiatives they're supposed to take because they're friends... all hypocrites.. every single one of them...
i was supposed to come beijing alone.. and i believe even in this 2-room apartment... even as "we" go to work and school together... i still feel like i'm alone
maybe i was expecting too much... or maybe i was being too sensitive... i'm getting sick and tired of feeling this way over and over again... maybe we shouldn't have understood one another so much, and should've stayed as superficial friends. nothing more than just being bonded together by an entity, as ironic as they are, known as "carnage"?
after being through all these i start to regret that i din actually spend more time with my old gang. maybe kenbang was right... why have so many friends? all i need is just a few true friends who can talk heart to heart, who are willing to make a few sacrifices, and who won't leave anyone behind, and doing all these even without speaking, without promising... but maybe i was expecting too much...
family, love, friendship... these were the 3 most valuable things humans can own, according to some taiwanese drama i'd watched back in JC days.. seems like i now am only a third as valuable as a normal human being
...此時將在月光下謝幕
12:33 AM